[wow how does one even start addressing something like this without it coming off horribly awkward he's never been put on the spot quite like this before UH.......]
is there any reason? or are they just being jerks?
I suppose the manner which I act confuses people. It confuses you, after all, Jack. Because it confuses... people feel like they can't trust me and so they make a lot of barriers around themselves that I cannot hope to break through. It's cruel by being kind. Allowing me to be close, but not as close as a real friend. So my heart aches.
hey i dont know about that i mean youre not THAT confusing like dont think the right word is really confusing at all actually its more like
i dont know you strike me as a pretty open kinda guy in a way most people normally arent? offering to give out free hugs and stuff isnt exactly a commodity
and some people dont really know how to deal with that kinda thing [...himself included, all things considered, but. still...]
you just handle things diferently from others from what i know about you anyway which maybe isnt too well at all yet but you handle things diferently and people can have pretty strong opinions about different things
its not okay for them to put up barriers like that but its what some people know how to do best i figure
I suppose it is asking too much for people to trust me after knowing me for awhile. I am too open and too odd. It just makes it difficult for those who could let me in to be let in.
It makes me worried about the friendships that I have. If no one lets you into their world, does that mean that you're only just an acquaintance? For all time?
but i dont think thats the only reason ever some people put a lot of value in their world or just have a hard time relaxing enough to let others in yknow? maybe
doesnt mean youre just an acquaintance though or that youll be just an aquaintance forever just because you dont know everytihng about each other yet doesnt mean you still cant be good friends right?
I've only had one true friend, and I grew up with him. I knew everything there was to know about him. I suppose I compare all relationships that I have to that one. The other people of my world ... it took a very long time for them to accept me into their world. But even then, I think hey would be happy if I was not. It's an acceptance born out of necessity before anything else...
I suppose that is why I worry so much about friendships here.
oh yeah limited experience makes things pretty hard you dont know what to expect or how things might turn out or whats the right thing to do and what isnt one point of comparsons better than nothing at least?
it makes sense though , why youd be worried to me anyway
[ It is and isn't a lie. The only real friend that he has ever had is Urick. He is the only one who will always love him regardless of what shape he has. Regardless of how far he ruins himself. Everyone else is simply broken by his hand or magic to love him. To be his friend. To adore him. He doesn't have this hear and so that is what makes him the most nervous. How can he trust these people when they are not Urick? How can he trust them when he hasn't completely broken them under his will? How? ]
Even after two years, I cannot make myself relax.
And no, there is no one from my world. The only one that ever came from my world was a mad woman! She is no longer here and for that I am glad. No one would be left alive on this ship if she were here. I doubt even your powers could hold her for she held two elementals -- fire and water. Her power was great and her madness was greater. To think that is the only one I ever got to see from my world ... and she wanted to eat me, I'm sure.
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No. I'm very sad. People are being cruel to me.
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well thats
a pretty good reason to be sad yeah
[wow how does one even start addressing something like this without it coming off horribly awkward he's never been put on the spot quite like this before UH.......]
is there any reason?
or are they just being jerks?
any way i can help?
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i mean youre not THAT confusing
like
dont think the right word is really confusing at all actually its more like
i dont know you strike me as a pretty open kinda guy
in a way most people normally arent?
offering to give out free hugs and stuff isnt exactly a commodity
and some people dont really know how to deal with that kinda thing [...himself included, all things considered, but. still...]
you just handle things diferently from others
from what i know about you anyway which maybe isnt too well at all yet but
you handle things diferently and people can have pretty strong opinions about different things
its not okay for them to put up barriers like that but its what some people know how to do best i figure
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sorry this probably doesnt help much im not
that great at
stuff like this
talking about it
but that kind of thing really sucks and im sorry
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I suppose it is asking too much for people to trust me after knowing me for awhile. I am too open and too odd. It just makes it difficult for those who could let me in to be let in.
It makes me worried about the friendships that I have. If no one lets you into their world, does that mean that you're only just an acquaintance? For all time?
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im not sure about that
but i dont think thats the only reason ever
some people put a lot of value in their world or just
have a hard time relaxing enough to let others in yknow?
maybe
doesnt mean youre just an acquaintance though
or that youll be just an aquaintance forever
just because you dont know everytihng about each other yet doesnt mean you still cant be good friends
right?
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I've only had one true friend, and I grew up with him. I knew everything there was to know about him. I suppose I compare all relationships that I have to that one. The other people of my world ... it took a very long time for them to accept me into their world. But even then, I think hey would be happy if I was not. It's an acceptance born out of necessity before anything else...
I suppose that is why I worry so much about friendships here.
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yeah limited experience makes things pretty hard
you dont know what to expect or how things might turn out or whats the right thing to do and what isnt
one point of comparsons better than nothing at least?
it makes sense though , why youd be worried
to me anyway
is there anyone from your world here?
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[ It is and isn't a lie. The only real friend that he has ever had is Urick. He is the only one who will always love him regardless of what shape he has. Regardless of how far he ruins himself. Everyone else is simply broken by his hand or magic to love him. To be his friend. To adore him. He doesn't have this hear and so that is what makes him the most nervous. How can he trust these people when they are not Urick? How can he trust them when he hasn't completely broken them under his will? How? ]
Even after two years, I cannot make myself relax.
And no, there is no one from my world. The only one that ever came from my world was a mad woman! She is no longer here and for that I am glad. No one would be left alive on this ship if she were here. I doubt even your powers could hold her for she held two elementals -- fire and water. Her power was great and her madness was greater. To think that is the only one I ever got to see from my world ... and she wanted to eat me, I'm sure.